Carson

Posts Tagged ‘anymore’

Ok, I’m going to try to keep this as short as I possibly can. I’m 22 years old and my parents have been divorced since I was 4. As far as my dad’s children, I’m his only. With my mom, she has 4 other children. I’m very close with my 4 siblings. As a child I did what they call “7 and 7″ I did one week with my mom and then one week with my dad. Both of my parents are great. I’m very close with my dad because I’m a lot like him and of course I’m his only so he really spoils me. But that doesnt mean I love my mom any less. Since I was a child I remember her always telling me to just pack up my stuff and just live with my dad because she didnt mean as much to me. Its always been about her. Always about how I “love my dad more” and how I’m not really part of the family. She says she feels like I always pick his side. We’ve talked about it over the years and she’ll say sorry because she knows I love her just the same. Shes just used to having her kids fall all over her and I’m the only child with another parent in their lives that really cares about them. I’ve been living in Dallas the last 4 years because I really wanted to get away from everything. Every time I come home for holidays my mom will get mad when I’m at my dads house saying I dont love her. She makes life miserable for me. Well I moved back home a month ago now (home is Iowa) and I’m buying a condo. Until I get to move in I’m living with my parents (yippie). At my moms house I dont have a room so I have to sleep in my little brothers room. But at my dads house I have a room where I can sleep in MY bed and all my clothes are at my dads. The first week I was back home I stayed at my moms all week. I only saw my dad once. Well this past week I’ve stayed at my dads all week because I have 2 jobs now. I work M-F 8:00-3 then every night from 5-2:00 in the morning. Plus I work Saturday nights. On top of this I’ve been applying for “real office jobs” and dealing with that, as well as dealing with all the loan papers for my condo. My mom text me yesterday and told me to just stay at my dads I’m obviously putting her second anyway, and I’m a real B**ch. She says I’m selfish only love my dad. I dont see what the big deal is. I’ve been staying at my dads because I have my bed to sleep in and I’m busy. Its not liek I’ve been spending time with him. And even if I was, hes my DAD why would it matter if I was? I just dont know what to do anymore. I feel like shes just trying to pick a fight with me and I have no clue how to handle the situation! Please people, you have to give me advice as to what to do. I just dont know anymore. I’m always the one who has to try and resolve things. I love her and I dont want to lose my mom but I’m so afriad thats what will happen one day. My siblings mean way too much to me and she tells them I’m a B**ch becasue I dont love the family and I only love my dad. So my little siblings listen to her. What do I Do??????? I shouldnt have to deal with this anymore, I’m 22 not 12!

(Sorry I know that was long but I really need to get it out there and have people help me!!!!)